I AM THE HAMMER!

Well, remember the bitching i did about not winning contests at this entry? >>> here-we-go-again

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GUESS I JUST BROKE THAT CYCLE AND STRUCK GOLD!!!
Literally struck GOLD!!

holy sh...

'I am The Hammer. I am the sword in His hand. I am the Gauntlet about His fist. I am the Bane of His foes and the woes of the treacherous. I am the End.' ~Grey Knights

Sob, it was certainly overwhelming when i found out about it. Tricia was even more excited than i was when she gave me a ring on Wednesday to congratulate me. She congratulated a very blur me before telling me that she saw my name on the list of gold medalists xD

"Many, many heartfelt Thanx to all who sms-ed/called me to give your congrats to me m(_ _)m"

The impact didn't really sink in until my slow brain took a couple of minutes to digest what i just heard. Then i was shaking uncontrollably with excitement lol. I was finally able to taste the experience of achieving something i have longed for for so long. After those relentless and bitter past track records of failing that i had T_T finally....

My 2nd entry.
Poor Midnight Carnival didn't manage to bag anything. xD

It must be partly due to those numbing experiences that drove me to never give up, to further outdo my previous selves. Like what Kin Sun said, what's more important is that each new piece that you work on, make sure that it is a little-teeny-weeny-bit better than the previous. Gradually time will bear the fruits of labor.

Of course, although i did manage to snatch the gold medalist title for Manga Illus category, i am far from remaining content. I know that i am still very 'amateur-ish' and that there is a lot of room for improvement (a room as big as the universe). Looking at this piece now i feel that the judges must have made a mistake to have awarded my sub-par work with a gold. Nevertheless, i am thankful for the opportunity they have given me.

The day i entered The One Academy has been a day of blessing (as well as a sweet torture). I am very fortunate to have my family's support for me in this eccentrical line that i am towing. I will treasure and cherish the skills/knowledge that i have gained in my endevour here, be it bitter or sweet. It feels good to be reminded that it is through a conscious choice on my own part that i am still where i am today.

It's a Trend!!!

It's a TREND!!!
lol so happens the usual blogs i visit are all inactive. And to think that i was the only one to go out of action for a while. Oh well, the usual stuff. Pre-occupied with college work, come home get lazy and just want to slack.

I just watched Transformers return of the Fallen twice last week and damn i am hell easy to please. I just love it so much because i grew up in the era when Transformers cartoon was my staple. It feels like time rewound itself and i was a little kid again, sitting in front of the television set and wishing that i was living in a world painted in the animation. I sure as hell regret giving away all my Transformers related toys!!! how those would fetch fairly high prices if i were to ebay it as some collector's item.

Somehow i feel the quality of toys back when i was kid was way much better than the toys they have now. The genuine Hasbro line of toys for Transformers now feel so cheap and plasticky that i wonder how they can charge that sort of price for it. Must be all the made in China thingy and cost-cutting-maximizing-profit thingy.

Anyways, i realise i have not been spreading enough kai-ism philosophies lately. Turns out i might be in a writer's block. I need to plan what to write to properly convert/corrupt a few followers into the path i'm taking. I just keep the point brief this time.

I like to "Work smart instead of work hard". I love taking shortcuts to achieve the same results or better. Well, doesn't work all the time (resulting in even harder work) but still at least i get the job done and it squeezes my brain juice to the limit to think of ways to cheat. Now cheat is too strong a word so i rephrase it to "deviate from norm". It may turn out unorthodox sometimes but who has to know bohahaha.

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Oh well, lacking in time lately to actually do major works, so i'm churning out some simple works to make into badges. I hope to make a few more before Daicon (anime manga convention) to sell during the event itself. I'm doing a lot of works on my wife lately i'm so sorry ;A; i just love her too much.

"I want my strawberry shortcake and pudding now!"
spoilt little thing ain't she.....i want to spoil her further <3

Down with the Bug

my, my, ain't my wife gorgeous?
*whispers frombeyond - self praise is no praise*

I did not deem fit to update my blog, i told myself, until i have finished this piece. Well, it's already a day or two after finishing it and i'm not up to it now to make a decent entry. You see, i have been hit with a wave of lethargy, body aches, and light-headedness. In more understandable terms, fallen sick...

やる気がありません．．．そうして体もクタクタ, 病気だ。何もやらない欲しくて、ゴロゴロしたい。。。
宿題はどうかな～　大変だよね．．．(´～`；；)

I'm not feeling tops to properly structure my content so i'll just make short paragraphs that are non-related.

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Right after Gan's color pencil demo and hints, i tested the color combination for shadows he taught....and found that i have been subconsciously applying it already all the time :/
without actually knowing the reason behind it though. Warm colors brings something out and cool the opposite effect in creating depth.

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Green used to be the least faved color to me in the color wheel. But as time passes and i got infatuated with my current waifu, which portrait i just did in Art Nouveau style, i became accustomed to it and accept it. The wonders my waifu could do to change a man.

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Tay, the lecturer for our CGPP, he's semi-vegetarian. Came as a slight surprise to me. Me and the gang were having our usual Wednesday-All-Vege-Night at Evergreen restaurant when he dined there with his family as well. Turns out his wife is full-time vegetarian like me. Power of women again.

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Behind every successful man is a woman. Ohhh Miku thanx for all the support!!! i shall be successful too one day. One Day. ONE DAY. ONE DAY!!!!

ok i mus sign off, i'm close to dropping limp on my keyboard.

Here we go again.

This morning, i woke up feeling blahs. I had to sit down at my pc and visit DeviantArt. And so i discovered i didn't even make the cut for the top 50 finalists for the DeviantArt contest. Even though i have prepared and told myself countless times that i won't make it at all, when the actual thing hits it still leaves me slightly demotivated.

Truth be told i held some hope of at least getting into the top 50. Yet again i have held my expectations too high and end up hitting myself hard again for daring to hope. I can never get numb over this feeling no matter how many times i've been smacked by it. I lost count how many competitions i have failed over my life. Yup, this adds another notch to my running record and deals another death blow to my ego. A little bit of me dieded again. Just gotta bury it and move on.

Fortunately, despite feeling blahs in the morning, i was glad i attended the talk by Kin Sun. (i'll make a seperate post sharing his gems later) It was very motivational and it gave me the boost again to do what i love best again. It made me BELIEVE that i can. That one day i might end up as successful as him. But it doesn't come easy and requires hard work. I don't believe in luck just like Kin Sun, so it's fine with me to make my own successes through hard work.

random quote: YES WE CAN!!! ~Obama

Speaking of luck, i am a quite a believer of "there is no lady luck". Maybe i have met her before but on a bigger scale and one which is not so noticeable to me. (Like being born into an awesome family in Malaysia and not some worst off place) I have tried very hard to recall any defining moment of my life which has striked me as lucky but i have not found it yet.

Lucky with the opposite gender? nope. In fact it seems to go against me on this matter.

Lucky with contests/lottery/luck draws? nope. Even when i did actually win a contest as 1st runner up the prize was non existent and forfeited because of budget constrant. That hurt me the worst.

Lucky to be selected for a certain something? nope. Hope and hope, it will never be you sometimes.

bla bla bla bla.

Some of the things that people feel that i am lucky to possess. I worked hard for it. It is hard work, not luck. I am instead a very strong believer of hard work. Although even with hard work i might not be as good as many but at least i tried and know i did not fail myself. Lady luck is just a slut and always toying with uncertainties.

I gotta run now. Attending cousin's wedding dinner.

Art Nouveau WIP2

Just finished outlining it. As usual a few changes made during the outline stage. Some things didn't seem so pretty or logical while i was outlining.

Didn't have much time to spend on it since i was busy doing college assignments. Hopefully i can finish it by this weekend. Still a long way to go since i still don't have a solid idea for the background yet. I want this to turn out pretty well so i'm giving it a lot thought as to what to do.

And if you have not found out yet by now, i'm actually drawing my waifu.

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No matter how i convince myself, Typography is just not the thing for me. I will hell steer clear of it whenever i can in future. Please please let this be a very advertising specialized subject for the good of the Illustrations juniors. This is way worst than History of Art. I frankly enjoyed both HOA 1 & 2 minus the assignments.

But Typo? ridiculous. Bland boring shit. I don't give a shit about letterforms and all its gawd dang categories. Yea some claim it to be another 'art' form but to me it is just for communication. I can read, good enough. No fancy shit please. Of course you can argue we can communicate more effectively with all the different typefaces, for example using Blackletters for formal certs and stuff to give it a 'classy classic' look. Ok i gotta agree for that reason it is pretty useful.

But aside from that, don't give me all the shit like what i went through in caligraphy and letterforms. Tell a story using the letters......puuuuuuuhleeeezzz DOH!!! ala Homer style. i prefer illustrating something else to tell a story kthxbai. Still, i like the historical part though....

Sigh.....regardless, i still need to at least get through it this sem. Oh the pure torture. They have to give you a bad subject each sem to torture you don't they. Nothing is smooth sailing. But one day i feel i'm going to look back and tell myself, "Shit, i should have payed more attention!!". I know it's bound to be useful but i can't help but rant.

Art Nouveau

something i'm working on right now, trying to do something i love combined with art movements. Getting the inspirations from Alfons Mucha. Currently it's still very bare without the framing thingies art nouveau styles are famous for.

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Anyways, the weather these days are killing. Baking hot and that's coming from me that fears cold way more than heat. Sucks to have false rains all the time.

My body is currently quite sick or 'heaty' as chinese people would call it. I've already been assailed with a few body ailments non-stop, rashes and eye sores to name some of them. One after the other. Gah.

Toa has been kind thus far, only qualms is that i'm not happy with having to take Typography. But oh well, i shouldn't complain as i have NO MORAL CLASSES BOHAHAHAHA!!! Oh~~~ you poor poor people. SPCA, community services, fund raisings, etc. Ahhhhh ain't all those fun. I better stop now before some of you decide to gank me in class.

Goodbyes are Forever

21st May 2009, marks the day silver Proton Saga BDJ 517 leaves the house of Choo.


Even as i am typing the new owner is already dealing with my dad to pick it up right outside our house.

Goodbye, my trusty mode of transportation. I can no longer gloat about not fearing collisions from other cars because of the worth others see not in you. Because of you no one took a second thought to steal you away. No one even bothered to rob the kid that drove you around. You have been my shield, my disguise.

BDJ517 has been in our family for about 18 years, since 1991. The performance of the car is still top notch despite its age but sadly recently the gear box has started to give way, making it hard to drive the car without warming up. If repaired the car can service us for yet another few years. But it is time to move on.

I have been through a lot with you, my old friend. As a kid, i recalled mum fetching me to school, tuition classes and anywhere with me seated at the back most of the time. I took you up about 5-6 years ago and during that time i have taken you as an indispensable extension of my own body. I could maneuver you almost perfectly even in the tightest spots of Sunway toll jams.

Ahhh the good ol' memories of me banging my head and lip syncing to loud music in the car. Through rain and sunshine. Through times when i speeded with you because i was late for class. Through all the accidents and abuse i made you suffer. Through all the 'Samans' i collected with you. Through memorable occasions when i was downcast and drifting melancholically in self reflection. All the sad, cheerful, and angry moments we have been through together on the seats of BDJ517.

Farewell forever. I hope to catch glimpses of you whenever i'm on the road.

You will be missed dearly old friend...