when there's a will there's a way

 just a few days back a little chat i had with a friend...

his version in ms paint...

and after that....with my turn again with SAI

Drawing Mannosuke never bores me.
Get to practice the male anatomy at the same time.
win win situation.

 

Kenesandesu~

hakutaku hakutaku hakutaku hakutaku hakutaku 

Some Keine coz i missed drawing her.

Guinea Pigs Can't Stand Being Lonely

"every great paint chat has at least a potato in it."
(courtesy of Sleepy, Sifu & me)

Pet owners frequently tell of their sole surviving pet Guinea pig soon following their companion not long after its death. It has been told that Guinea pigs can actually die of loneliness.

i guess i can sort of relate to those Guinea pigs now. If i did not have an elder bro to hang around with and rely on constantly i could have fallen into some sort of depression. i am always surrounded by people, but it still feels like i'm quite alone. It isn't about my inability to make new friends, but more like the sort of friends that ain't there just for face value.

High school friends, the closest bunch i've ever known are all busy with their own adult lives now, meeting only on rare yumcha occasions or holiday celebrations. My spirits are always lifted when i meet up with them, with the usual casual banters and curses that makes me most at home with these guys.

Art/hobby friends, the bunch i really enjoy hanging out with are currently sorta inactive. We used to motivate each other to churn out new works and draw upon the expertise of each other for the betterment of ourselves. Ever-since i started working, plus the others sorting out their studies and also work life, there has been less activity among us.

i found this out to be one of the reasons i have been feeling quite demotivated and depressed lately. After a night spent paint-chatting briefly with some of my mates, i felt my spirits lifted a tiny bit, which is hard to come by these days. With some reflection i realized then that it has to do with the longing of hanging out and doing the things i love to do with my gang. i have been in isolation from them for months and it has been slowly eating away at me.

i guess now that i know the reason why, i could work towards a remedy for my recent downcast. Knowing is half the battle won.

Gain Some, Lose Some

Lately, almost a year after graduating, i realized that what i learnt in college was just the tip of an iceberg. I'm slowly beginning to become aware of a lot of things that weren't clear to me while i was still learning them in classes.

Probably, that might be due to the nature of the education system i went through - tight deadlines, and meeting the expectations of others rather than self. i found that it was hampering actual learning abilities during those times. But it might not be entirely the system's fault, as i feel that i was pretty slow in picking up new things as well.

Thankfully i had at least been introduced to how certain things should be done. The rest is mostly up to myself to find out and improve on. What was really useful was the exposure to certain methodologies that i find most important of all during my years of education.

In retrospect, i was lucky that i tried my utmost when doing my stuff, although at times the task was not up to my liking. Thanks to that the pointers given then has slowly resurfaced to a new understanding.

In the process of polishing the areas that i need working on right now, i realized too that some of the things that i could do years back, i might not be able to do so easily now. Part of me wishes to retain those old skills, but that just pins me down to my comfort zone.

I guess i should stop worrying about that anyway and start focusing on strengthening my basics for now. There's still a lot i need to explore on, and it is truly fortunate to have many peers and seniors that are guiding me along the way. I do hope to reach their standards one day.

The road is still long, but step by step i will try to reach the end. At my own pace.

Time and again

Whoa it's already been about 3 years since the existence of this blog. Time flies when i'm busy not noticing it. Looking back, i sometimes ponder to myself how much have i changed since those embarrassing entrees. Years down the road from now, i might still be thinking the same. Guess this is part of growth again.

Time to time, i feel like putting in an entree for this blog, but always tend to procrastinate it because it felt cumbersome to log into this account. (I was permanently logged into my youtube account, and this blog was on a diff account...) But then since i utilize 2 web browsers these days, i thought why not log in permanently for the other browser.

Hence, a feeble attempt right now to resuscitate this sad sad forgotten corner of the internetz. This blog's purpose has changed over the passing of moons, from WIP step-by-step entrees to personal diary, and then to rants & whines, and back to dumping some doodles occasionally when i feel like it. I'm not so sure what sort of whim and fancies will pop up now that i have decided to revive this redundant space. Maybe a short update on what i have been up to in the duration of MIA.

Hopefully though, i have less of an excuse to not drop entrees now that i have gotten rid of the cumbersome log in problem.

It's Hammertime!

Moar doodlessss. Feel like wanna finish this one up.

Shit...everytime i finish a doodle i feel like collapsing. Off to bed.

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Unrelated, i found out yesterday that my driving license expired for about 8 months and i just realized it then. Instantly, ran my guts out to renew it.

lucky.

Scribble Dribble

More junk.
Nodding off while typing this...
Nite nite.

Scribble Dribble

Qwuick doodle.
Just forcing myself to do something before i hit the sack.
Nite nite.

Awakening

Lecturer LW once said that he truly picked up a certain set of skills about a year after he first learned it. He told us to bid our time and we will eventually come to see fruit too. I am finally able to relate to what he meant then, as I too, am beginning to familiarize with those skills although i have not touched it for ages. I guess as I went along i must have polished it without knowing it and eventually came to a sudden realization to its application. I am far from mastery but at least I am grasping it. Ancora Imparo - I am still learning.

Signing off with a quick 30 mins doodle of Hakutaku Keine from Touhou.

Repetition -> Habit

"I wake up in the morning with nothing, at the end of the day i have something" ~Christian Lorenz (Swiss artist)

That quote best describes the passion we as artists have very well. Each day we create something new and it satisfies us at the end of it. I used to think that it was a chore to draw daily and would only like to do it whenever i felt like it. That was at a time long past when i hadn't really delved myself into art college.

Although i still loathe working on my assignments at a non-stop basis, at the end of the day there is that certain satisfaction of accomplishment. In between those hectic moments i feel even more joy on having to work on my own stuff. Ever more so desperately now with the limited moments of actually not having to fulfill a deadline.

I've really become a workaholic. I feel fidgety if for a day i did not put something down on pencil and paper. I'll end up sleeping that night feeling guilt and remorse for having done nothing productive. It's quite hard to take it easy but at least i have started to learn how to minimize my stress levels when necessary.

On another note, art block is hard to come by these days as i always do have something i would wanna do. Sure squeezing out ideas for assignments ain't always a walk in park but it gets easier and easier with familiarity. As for personal works, i have too much on my mind to really get any art block. Just that i lack the time to create those pieces i have stored somewhere in the parts of my brain that aren't filled with porn nonsensical whims.

Anyways, i have been getting myself involved in quite a few competitions this sem. I'm quite surprised to find out that i didn't suffer burnout as badly as the previous sems. It seems that the more i do works for myself, the more energized i would be for a while. It keeps me happy although i know i might be sacrificing much of my time for sleep, play, and etc. I even concentrate and work faster on my assignments after that -_-;;

Oh well, signing off for now. Bz bz bz with life that i don't update this place as much as i would love to. Ranting about negative stuff would be easy but this would just make my blog a gloomy place to drop by. I'll also end up sounding like a whiny biatch. Sooooo yea. Lately it's turning out to be more like a diary for myself.

Have some random quicky of my mascot girl here while i go back to living my sad existence. Abusing textures and using colors i seldom use is fun.

Dat ass...

WDK 9111

My bro's car just got stolen couple of days back, on Sunday. He left his car at his friend's place in Puchong and car pooled to a photoshoot. Next thing he knew, the car was gone when he returned in the afternoon.

It's not a first case though, just a few weeks back his friend whose place he parked at also got his Myvi stolen. Plenty more were also stolen in between the time from that Myvi to my bro's turn. Seems like the police here can't do nuts. Security here has gone to hell.

But anyways, Toyota Corolla SEG only wei. Who would have thought that such an old car also they wanna steal. I dunno whether it is worth their time and effort butchering our car for spare parts to sell. Give problem to us only orz

Now he has to drive mine while i get chauffeured around by my parents to college. Very inconvenient but i will have to live with it for while grrrr. Now they can keep tabs on me when i choose to skip class.

Dishonesty is the best policy?

My bro lost his wallet today. More like it got nicked 3 minutes after he was conscious he dropped it. He knew he dropped it when he got out of the car and when he checked his pockets, realised it was missing, went back for it in like the time span of a few minutes only to find that it had gone with the wind.

Take not what is not yours. Don't parents teach that to their kids anymore? Greed is seeping into the hearts and souls of the people around us now. Gone were the days of kindness and good Samaritans. Finders keepers is more the norm now, or each for their own.

I heard that in Japan you'll still find your belongings where it was even after hours of losing it. This shows how society has really deteriorated in this country. Ok la to be fair not only here but its the scenario common in many countries. Moral values are regarded as belongings of fools, and without it is the way to go in order to survive and 'climb the ladder of success'.

I would rather stay the fool and live with a clean conscious than know that my actions are harming others. Let us not be like them hmm Kay?

Lame Sauce acrylic finals

Some lamesauce rough thumbs i did for what i'm about to paint for my acrylic finals.

I could do this one if i wanted to, but wasn't the prime choice of lect.


Both tutor and lect preferred me to do this one...i have no qualms coz i did want to do this.


this is lamesauce pic i did to reach the 3 thumb quota.

Hafta show a colour thumb next week. I have to repaint the 2nd piece above to reflect what i want on the board or else i'm gonna suffer later. Oh god there goes my CNY break...3 weeks of total time to paint an A2 size illustration board. I am so gonna die.

One Year Anniversary!

Pfft...can't imagine i have been able to keep this blog alive for a exactly a year on today. Never thought that it would last more than a month when i first started. Let's hope it stays alive for another year eh?

New year, new stuff, new semester, new sinking feeling, same old me.
Been spending my new year paint chatting with my crazy art friends and wasting away precious time which could have been spent doing productive work. My engine has not warmed up yet.

Here's some of the doodles and stuff we did.

theme: Warrior girl, guess which is mine?

theme: Stationery girl. Meet erasers, staples, paper clips, sharpeners, 2b pencil and so forth. i want to be stapled (*´Д`) =3 -3 =3

theme: Vampire girl, Y SO SRS?

theme: Guns & girls. What is batman doing here...

Met some of the Degree course peeps and they totally give a different breathe of air. Refreshing.
That's it for now coz i don't wanna go into another rant post involving the hell i live in now.

Doodle oodles

Just some doodling on paint chat that me and my ex-student been doing on Pixiv to test the beta out. Totally whole new paint chat experience.

welcome the year of the tiger! 2010!

Why why tell me why??!!

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Next sem monday to saturday class again....WTF is wrong with you TOA. This is not how you should kill your students although it will be achieved gradually. i know i paid money to enter hell but this is too much aaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAaaaaa..............

i don't mind busy, packed schedules/assignments but 6 days per week???!!! i thought that shit was over with together with my foundation days. Weekends was bad enough trying to work on pending assignments, now another day lost for doing work!!! aieeeeeeeeeeeeee...............!!!!!

Petrol dam cheap issit!!!! time not precious one issit. i gotta drive 6 days to college!!! Another notch to non-environmental friendly art college. As if wasting paper wasn't enough. You people should learn how to go green.

-_-

This round the sem break was shorter, i said nevermind. Sem break only ma, it's ok. Turns out something worst awaits me at the end of it now. Time given for self exploration is getting less and less. Social life no need to say. Not that i had any to begin with.

Oh and i'm already raving and ranting this much despite not having attended a class yet. i bet there are even worst stuff coming up soon. There is bound to be one or few subjects which purposely make my life miserable and wonder what the whole point is. Just wait, i can feel it sending slight tremors up my bones already.

-_-

Maybe i should just take less subjects and take a longer time to graduate. At the current rate i'm going i might suffer burnout even before i start working. Seems like each round i tell myself i'm gonna die from the stress of studying for another diploma after my degree. But i always emerge triumph. I wonder how long more my weathered body will last through another tsunami, each more powerful than the previous.

Sigh...time to seek solace with my my 2d beauties.

End of Sem + GACC

Finally sem break is here! though this round i don't think it's very long coz our classes got dragged another week.

Anyhow, this post features some of the works did during the sem.

Typography CD cover, non of the images belong to me although i did trace some of them in Illustrator.

outside

inside

CGPP board game

mix of Smarties and Katamari Damacy

Illustration Fundamentals Final. Wish i did a better job but i'm not brave enough to venture beyond using color pencils alone. I always have fear of trying new stuff without prior guidance.

uugghh i suck at the composition

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Prior to sem break, last weekend was GACC (game,anime,comic, convention) down at Malacca. It was a 2 day event and i had to drive down to and fro for 2 days, fortunately swapping between my bro and me.

Turn out wasn't so good this year, since everyone is so hyped up about H1N1. Can't blame them after the number of deaths reported. Anyways, overall the event wasn't as awesome as previous year and it's not because it is missing the Seiyuu. Well, it's just lacking i guess, from the way things were organized down to the control of the event. Anyhow, the Emcees were still as awesome.

Day 1 character design competition which i again joined and bagged nothing :D
Sorcery is the theme given this time and, knowing the mass majority will draw witches (which 2 out of the top 3 bagged the position, 1 was a sorcerous), i decided to go for witch-doctor-shaman-thingy, to which i think i might have fared better if i drew witches lmao. Well, trying to do something different sucks sometimes huh? xD

oh my, maybe this looks more like a fairy, but it's still sorcery ain't it!

Regardless, i still enjoyed it and i can feel my brain juices really flow when a time limit is imposed. Time for some humble pills, i'm just not there yet lol. But i'll keep trying until i do again! Just like the gold medal for my Hammer piece.

Driving around Malacca town, i noticed a shop which coincidentally has my nick on it, "KAIZER" in caps and yellow in color with a stark red background filling. It's a food outlet selling chicken and something i can't remember. Too bad din manage to snap a pic of the sign board. XD Now i can tell people i have a restaurant in Malacca.

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On day 2 since there were no competitions to join (YES GACC, WHAT HAPPENED TO GUILTY GEAR TOURNAMENT???!!) Surface doujin group leader Pcmaniac aka Peach, mutilated Mio from K-ON...

wat the....CAN'T UNSEE!!!

his original piece that was sold in the K-ON set...

And so, i decided to have my own revenge on him when he went out for lunch...

XD Yui?

original piece courtesy of PC again...find his works here > Peach Artworks

I had a good laugh over it and we burnt each other's eyes out. Almost made an all out war drawing each others gallery into manly renditions. Fortunately we came to an agreement not to.

Later i got commissioned to draw my own character here below. Strangest request yet since usually fanarts are the things requested.


Got back from Malacca and KO-ed. Took a long time to fully recover my energies. Long distance driving suxxors.

Another one to the collection

Caught up with some Monash-ian friends last Sunday and watched Ice Age 3. Squirrel dood for the win!!! Went for dinner after that and spent time catching up on the years we haven't seen each other

I got a wonderful cap from Australia as a gift from a dear friend!

I like collecting hats, and my fav kind happens to be the ones where the top is flat instead of rounded. I got about 5 pretty unique caps currently + the one i just got from a close friend.

Rushed home at night for an all-nighter date with a board game final project for CGPP.
Will make another post for my assignment works later.

Handed the darn board game to the print shop on Tuesday. Now to wait for the results of printing, write a rationalle for it and i'm done with the tedious subject.

What we did for life drawing class on Tuesday was awesome. We had a practice where we drew our friends by not looking at the paper. All their faces turned out distorted but still recognizable as the person itself XD

I found Beng's one to be the most hilarious, thus the pics below.

Chair's rendition of Beng

My renditon of the retard xD

I think this is how caricatures were born....

O Hai Thar

Uh huh. Inactivity as you would call it. Hahahah i've been spending so much of my free time reading History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi that i pretty much neglected everything. Including my sad deviantart page now which is reduced to nothing. Fark i wasted too much time!!! Hmm but i won't say it's a complete waste tho :D managed to sharpen my fighting-pose sense quite a bit from reading it. (And i just love those big boob girls in the manga - Shigure roxxors)

Anyways, a little something which happened before (1) and after (2) the 1 week break for CNY.


i found receipts with piggies drawn on them stuck on my car by no other than the naughty/mischievious/old Celine...CELINE PLEASE ACT YOUR AGE!!!!! (i'm gonna die if she reads this)

Since both of us of the "older" generation choose to save money and park in the back lanes of PJS 9, often times our cars are just back-to-back. Dammit! she's really quick! I had always wanted to do it to her 1st but she was quicker. Great minds think alike.....but lazy Kai lost in execution.

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So anyway, Composition class paaaaaawns and makes us yaaaaaawn again. Due to the nature of the class i had to keep myself awake with doodles of the Magical Yaoi Loli Meido. Running-like-a-horse birthmark on leg included.....


......transformation from that harmless loli mode (which appears when certain some1 is around) into an assassin type maid (of my own fetishes). Influences from HSD is apparent in the doodle kthxbai. Trish added Yokey, who also hates my guts lots biting me, which Ah Beng decides to add himself stabbing her.

Until next entry, ciaoz

Nonsense Aplenty

Doodled some msn crap with Yokey and Ivon a couple of nights back hahaha
This is what happens when i get bored during new year...
[WARNING: NONSENSE ABOUND]

No.1 Mech Lolivon Meido [Ivon]

No.2 Sexy Yokey Meido

kungfu kai [me] as their arch villian...

Yokey's rendition of kungfu kai

No.3 Magical Yaoi Loli Meido Trish [featuring curly]

Ivon's response after she got pissed......

Ivon's rendition of enemy no.2 Ah Beng...

curly when not possesed by his hair-eating-evil hat

The doodles above are based on a little story made by Trish regarding herself and her 2 other maids [Ivon and Yokey] cleansing the word of kungfu kai [me], Ah Beng, and curly :D
If you happen to know us and ever get a chance to see the original design by Trish it's just hilarious.

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The following day,
Ivon was still pissed.....depicting herself taking a bite at a 'kai'

we ended talking about my hair and thus...

Ivon's version.

and then Ivon came up with Trish having curly hair xDDD

so random orzlll