They did it again...

They did it again.

I'm suffering burnout at the early stages once more.

I just feel like spending a day, sitting at one spot stoning without a thought in my mind. Those days are almost impossible to come by anymore. Not a day goes by without something of a drawing medium in my hand. I don't despise it but my arms feel like falling off.

What have i to look forward to these days, i do not know myself.

Sorry for lack of updates, and when i do it's mostly negatives.

Adios.

Miku Append

Has been some time since i last updated on Miku vids on this blog. For good reason of diversifying my interest elsewhere. Anyways, some genius chinese dood used the new Miku Append, which supposedly sounds more realistic than the older version of Miku to make the above song. Hear it and let me know what you think lol. I just think my wife got a superb upgrade.

more details at the official Crypton site if you interested. Not only her voice got an upgrade now she looks more mature. This version has it's own appeal compared with the old one. I like them both actually.

Unrelated, here's a little something fun to read.

I was stuck in a traffic jam recently. Nothing moved for ages when a man rapped on my window. "What's going on?," I asked.

''Terrorists down the road have kidnapped a few BN politicians. They're asking for a ransom or they're going to set them alight with petrol. We're going from car to car, taking up a collection."
I then asked, "How much is everyone giving on average?"

"Most people are giving a gallon."

All Good Things Must End

...and that is my sem break. Time to face sleepless nights again starting tomorrow.

My whole holiday has been a fruitful time for me to recuperate and work on personal projects plus commissions to fuel my expensive hobby of figurines. So i totally screwed doing any of the assigned holiday works ahahaha. I'm so gonna get it but i think i'm not alone in this so yea :/

I was working on some pieces of stuff for a Touhou artbook together with my doujin group, due for printing around June. Deadline was pretty long, since the beginning of this year actually but due to my own tight college schedule i only managed to get some of it done during the 7-week-break.

Needless to say when i eat, sleep, play or what not i was always thinking about Touhou stuff. Thanx also to the constant pushing from the other members to keep me motivated throughout the entire break.

Here are some super small thumbs of what i was up to during my whole break, in the order of how i posted it. No high res will be up for now until the book is officially printed and sold ^^;;







I'm gonna have to go back and retouch-up the older ones orzll...
With each new piece i produce i feel that my previous pieces lack completeness. But not now since quantity is an issue. I promised 6 pieces but ended up assigned 10 now because of some others who promised to produce more...

Since sem has started...i can't promise anything but try to work towards that 10. Hope i won't burn myself out D:

Introverts Vs Extroverts

Introverts usually get a bad rap from extroverts. They are often defined in a negative way: shy, lacking in confidence and social skills, withdrawn, etc. Extroverts often can't understand why someone would happily decline an invitation to a party so they can stay at home on their own.

Never has there been an article i read which comes across explaining what i've always wanted to express but couldn't word it down properly. Upon completion of reading this post , i hope you will understand my kind much better.

Extroverts gains energy from interacting with others, which is why they love going to parties. Put an extrovert in an empty house, and chances are that he will be itching to get out and make contact with others fairly quickly.

Introverts, on the other hand, would feel extremely comfortable spending time on their own, because they gain energy from being alone and reflecting, and expend energy when interacting.

Suffice to say that we are the exact polar opposites of each other. I respect the choices of extroverts (ETs) wanting to hang out more often, so i hope the same respect can be shown to introverts(ITs). Exerting yourselves to get an IT to participate is just being mean to the other party if he chooses not to be participative.

One activity that's designed to torture introverts, while providing a spotlight for the extroverts, is karaoke. ... I sat with my fellow introverts and hoped that I could get through the session simply by singing through along during some of the choruses.

Hell yea, what the heack is with Karaoke. Beg as you must for me to participate in one, i will never compromise to put myself in a situation which is awkward to both me and the ETs. I was once cheated to enter with a group of friends before. It was pure torture from the 18th level of hell. I never kept in contact those friends anymore.

Things were going well until one of the ETs felt that they needed to hear an IT solo.

Obviously, some ITs would reject the offer if they aren't feeling up to it, to which ETs will with sadistic glee use quotes like

"Don't be such spoil sports!"
"Come on! Just this once we'll like to hear you do it!"

i say to you, F*CK YOU! i don't usually endorse using foul language in my entries, but that is how pissed i am with incessant annoyances coming from ETs. LEAVE US BE WHEN WE FEEL LIKE WE WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE.

After a suitable period of time, I excused myself and made to take my leave. Almost immediately, one of the other ITs stood up and announced that she had to go too.

We both exhaled loudly as soon as we were out of earshot.

I salute the author for even forebearing with the whole karaoke shit. I would just walk out despite losing friends in the process. Who needs them anyway. Coming out of the karaoke is just like being released from a torture prison except that it's not much a prison to me because i am not bounded by the shackles called friendship. Sure i do give face sometimes and if it goes beyond my annoyance threshold i'm off.

I wouldn't describe myself as being shy or socially inept; far from it. Still, i do feel decidedly uncomfortable in certain social settings. I don't do large parties very well. Over the years, i have become quite adept at faking small talk with strangers, but it's about as pleasurable as a root canal without anesthetics.

*nods head in agreement*
i wholeheartedly support what is said here. And yes, most often than not i am faking a face when mingling with strangers.

I once went to a party with an ET friend. As soon as we were through the host's front door, he was off. He spent the entire evening working the room, talking to different people and having a ball. I, on the other hand, found a free chair around a table and sat there for the entire evening, listening to the extroverts who came and went.

i wouldn't consider myself that much of an IT in this case, because i do mingle around a bit. To which after that i would love to adjourn somewhere to spend some time just sitting around and chilling.

I would rather stay at home with a good book.

Exactly. What's better than having to read a book peacefully or for my case just work on my drawings.

I respect who or what you are. So would you do the same for me?


All citations taken from Monday 12 April 2010 Star paper, "Party poopers" by Mary Schneider. Credit goes to her marvelous article.

Graduation from Bachelorhood

Graduation from bachelorhood, outcast to the brotherhood...

Congratulations,
i'm happy for you but at the same time i feel something within me has passed on.

Congratulations,
i celebrate for you but what is this knife i'm holding in my hands now?

Congratulations,
i share the joy of seeing the pair of you together but what is this red substance flowing down my cheeks?

Congratulations,
summer has come for you but winter drapes the remaining few of us seeking warmth from one another.

Congratulations,
you managed to break the curse of this sad and ronery brotherhood before any of us.

Congratulations biatch D:

i dedicate this video to you.

Hiatus

Sem breaks are usually when the blog gets neglected. Coz there's pretty much nothing interesting happening for me to rant about. Cept maybe boiling into a hard-boiled egg in this crazily hot weather.

That aside, i'm trying to maximize my personal time during this hols. Live my life to the fullest. Game like no tomorrow. Watch anime like no tomorrow. Draw like no tomorrow. And, last but not least, sleep like no tomorrow. It's the last long one i'll ever get before i get booted down the hole in Sparta. Might as well live like i won't get another chance.

Another year to go, and i'm still undecided of what to do once i grad. When i graduated from my comp science at least my goal then was to pursue art. Now that i'm here i'm lost as to what to do when i'm done with the course. Work as a programmer? then for what purpose did i enroll for the 3 years of torture? I might be a M but not to this extent.

So this leaves me with the next obvious option. Work along the lines of what i'm taking up now. So what will i be when i'm out? Character designer for game companies? Sure i'll love to and is probably what i really wanted but i see it as an impossibly far-off goal as of now. Maybe with opportunities to learn and grow in future then i'll come back to it.

Ah if not that then? Freelancing for advertising visuals and such while i look for another job? Ugh i won't be enjoying this one but i need moolahs to make a living right? If it comes down to this why not. Then the other job might be tutoring or lecturing while i get the ins and outs of the art industry. Coz where i am right now? i don't even know what jobs are there available for me when i'm out.

Moving on, how bout working for animation firms? i can handle 2d animations but if its 3d then goodbye-sayonara-see-you-in-hell. I haven't gone through matte painting yet so i'm not sure how i can be useful in that aspect as of now. I personally wont mind getting a 2d animation job, sure it's thankless, stagnant, and takes long hours to accomplish but i can tolerate that with some prior insight into this field before.

Now the least expected place i'll ever end up in...Design firms. Hell no i'm not cut for design and i know it. Sure it's nice to see well made designs and all but i'm not prime cut for CREATING them. I might be able to produce kindergarten-standard of designs and that's about it. And that's already pushing myself to the limits

How about manga artist? Sure if you can forebear with cheezy titles i might come up with. You might think, nah how cheezy can it get? Seen it all. Nothing will ever prepare you for the furies i will unleash if i ever venture into doing this for a living. Oh but don't worry, it'll be a short-lived one coz i might have died from starvation halfway between and the world will be rid of a pestilence like me. Humans will regain their sight again after this blinding ordeal.

As of 4th of May 2010, Kai has yet to make any decisions for his own future orz
2 years 8 months left to the end of the world.

March Comes Marching Down

If ever any cute girl comes along to me dressed like this with the same pose, i can die a cutesy death on the spot without a care...

When the blog gets neglected, save it with step-by-steps or tutorials. Yeaaaaaa.
Not very different from the usual step-by-steps i post here, except this one contains some of the quick and dirty techniques i put to use all the time 8D

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I'm already feeling the holiday mood and starting to neglect TOA work....I'm so sick of the simplified figures assignment these days that i barely want to do them at all. So i just aim for some C to C+ gradings with my lousiest effort ever. Sorry SS i don't feel motivated to do them anymore.

I don't feel productive lately too. I'm trying to take a short break from drawing and spend some leisure time gaming and watching anime, which i haven't done in ages. This be doing me some good as it boosts my moods recently. I'm no longer so time-tied and workaholic for the meantime. Good or bad thing i won't know, but i live life for the moment and worry later.

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i noticed that after entering art school, the effects of the fundamentals that i were taught during my foundation year is seriously starting to show up now. The way i was taught to perceive everything as lines, simple forms and shapes has granted me now the power of sharinga- *ahem*, the power to perceive almost all objects around me into it's most basic form and structure with my eyes. I coin the term "Artnigan" for the ability my eyes possess now, aside from my inherent ability to see everything else in the most perverted way possible (eroningan).

Putting aside all the eroningan-shenanigan-vegan stuff, this new found ability that is triggered subconsciously when i plan to draw or visualize an object, is seriously a big help. There were complex things i never managed to put on paper before but has now become more manageable thanx to 'Artnigan'.

Since it has only just activated in its preliminary stage, i'm still not utilizing it to its full potential yet. I'll make sure to master this skill to level up and have my irises turned into atom-shaped patterns. Maybe as i go further along down this ninj-... art path of no return, i'll start picking up more useful abilities such as being able to plagiarize techniques by observation, heack maybe i'll even learn to see through clothing.

signing off now,
adios